Merry Christmas Everybody.

This years Christmas ain't that great for me but i hope it'll be awesome for you guys.

XOXO.

I'm back in Malaysia.. But,

I'm stuck in my hometown in Penang instead of being in KL. This sucks right? I'm totally bummed out. Some miscommunication got me thinking I was going to be back to KL, not here. I was looking forward to seeing my friends, to see every single one of my friends over there again. The thing is, since we already migrated over to Aussie permanently, my parents sold our house. So the only place we can crash whenever we come back to Malaysia is my relatives. So this time, it's the ones in Penang. At least I've got my cousins here. But honestly, I'm feeling very lonely.. this holiday hasn't turned out to be what i expected.

Hey if you guys are reading this, please pay me a visit in Penang whenver you're coming down here! Miss you guys truckloads.

Xoxo. (:

I get it. I get it.

Back home, everyone's stressing out, heartbroken and so much more. I'm sorry i can't be there with you right now, i'm sorry nothing i say here can change the facts of what you guys are facing, i'm sorry i'm not there to put a big smile on your face. But be strong, if theres one thing i know for sure bout you guys.. it's competent. Hey, don't give up hope. This is just the beginning of our lives. (:

"We live in a world of worse-case scenarios. We cut ourselves off from hoping for the best because too many times, the best doesn’t happen. But every now and then, something extraordinary occurs. And suddenly, best case scenarios seem possible. Every now and then, something amazing happens. And, against our better judgment, we start to have hope. "

I strongly believe in this. God knows its true!

Friends are people who would wait for you for three hours in the pouring rain, and not care when you never came.
friends are people who would hear your most deepest, darkest, secret, and still keep it forever.
friends are people who would listen to your fears and hopes, but never question why.
friends are people who would be happy for you, no matter what.
friends are people who want you to be happy.
friends are there to help you along the way.
so hears to my friends, that helped me, to the end.
y.k.w.y.a. love you guys!!!!!!!<3

Depression is such a cruel punishment. There are no fevers, no rashes, no blood tests to send people scurrying in concern. Just the slow erosion of the self, as insidious as any cancer. And, like cancer, it is essentially a solitary experience. A room in hell with only your name on the door. I realize that every person, at some point, takes up residence in one or another of these rooms. But that realization offers no great comfort now.

Hey, you know what?

One of the things i have learned early in life is that if you discovered something that made you tighten inside, you should totally learn more about it. If you simply just ignore the feeling, that blissful feeling that doesn't just come and go day by day, you would never know what might happen, and in many ways hat the worse than finding out you were wrong in the first place. Because if you really were wrong bout it, you could go forward in your life without looking back over your shoulder and wouldn't wonder what might have been.

Thats what happened to me you know.. I'm glad with every moved I made, I wouldn't have met this wonderful person if I hadn't.

I.
Am.
Blissfully.
Happy.

We talked bout friends today in class, there was free period of course. It got me thinking, well.. obviously, if there's one thing every kid needs growing up, it's a best friend right. Someone you can trust, someone who trusts you right back. Someone you measure yourself against. You go through everything together.

Important things.
Stupid things.
Things that matter,
and things that don't?

But hey, wheres my best friend?

Everything is in place, I hope it'd stay that way.

Sometimes, I just miss everything and everyone back home, I could just sit in the room, staring at space, tears rolling down my cheeks, missing everything back home.

How could I ever turn back time? If only human could.

Sometimes.. I feel comfortable talking to strangers rather than people I know. I believe this is because chances are, I'll never see them again, and I feel like I can say anything I want. They don't know my past or what I've done.
They can only judge me on who they are seeing right that second. I am the person I am now, not then. People I know don't see the difference. :(

Guys, girls, lesbians, gays, trans;

Heres my new blog.
I'll try updating often.
My life has been just, busy busy busy!

loves.